Just.. LOVE YOURSELF!
August 22, 2012...
“Love Yourself”
This Picture Was My First Instagram Post!
This Was During My College Days (2nd Or 3rd Year).
• From What I Remember..
This Was During Some Of The Most Miserable Times Of My Life.
I Was So Unhappy.
I Literally Felt Like..
I Was Stuck In A Place That I Didn’t Want To Be In Anymore.
Everything && Everyone Around Me Were So Annoying.
I Was Always So Frustrated..
With Myself!
There Was Probably A Time..
When I Actually Hated Myself.
I Was Absolutely Depressed!
Stressed Out Over Everything.
But, The Thing I Was Always Good At Was..
Hiding It!
I Never Allowed Anyone To Know My True Feelings.
It Was A Lot Happening
&& I Just Kept It All Bottled Up.
The Only Things That Would Ease The Pain A Little Was..
Writing It All Out Into A Song
&& Dancing Out Some Of My Emotions.
I Really Felt As If
The Entire World Came Crashing Down On My Head.
I Was In The Position..
That Everyone Around Me Wanted Me To Be In..
&& I Wasn’t Doing Anything For Myself.
Waking Up Every Day
&& Trying To Get Out Of Bed..
Was A Really Long Process.
I Never Felt Like Doing Anything..
Because, It Was Always The Same Routine.
I Just Wanted To Feel Real Happiness..
Again!
To Smile A Real Smile!
&& To Actually Laugh A Real Laugh.
When Being Surrounded By People..
I Wanted To Be Present In That Moment,
But I Wasn’t.
I Always Felt Lonely..
Like I Had No One.
Because, No One Would Understand.
I Still Have A Lot To Work On!!
But, The Feelings I Had In 2012
Are Most Definitely Not The Feelings I Have Today.
Through All Of That,
I Can Say..
I Was Never Suicidal.
I Never Wanted To Harm Myself In Any Type Of Way.
I Just Needed Change.
I’m Still Not In The Position That I Want To Be In,
But.. I Feel That I’m Slowly Getting There.
I’m Happy!
Not Depressed.
Some Stress.
But, I’m Doing Things My Way,
For Me.
&& I Feel Like..
ME!
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Thank You GOD!